Christian Science healed me of TB, tuberculosis.

Jan Gutteter’s trusted KJV Bible verses often relied on for healing:
“Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.
 For the Lord shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy food from being taken.” Proverbs 3:25-26
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Christian Science healed me of TB, tuberculosis.
Judy: So Jan, how did you come to Christian Science?
Jan: My grandfather had divorced and remarried. It was she who was a Christian Scientist; although I wasn’t very well acquainted with her at that time.
I had a glimpse of its teachings through a note received from her after I had run off to marry; I was quite young, quite foolish and didn’t know the fella well. I thought when I married him, then we had to say, “I do.” But from that time on I think I probably saw him once. I don’t know what he did with his time, but we traveled to 24 states and I didn’t know he was one step ahead of the law. We married in July and the following July I had a little girl. In March, before I had her, he came to me and said, I think we’ll go back to Milwaukee because that way your family can get to enjoy the child. And, you know, something inside me just said, I wonder. So we got to my parent’s home and we were unable to get motel, so they invited us — oh, my mother was so glad to see me because she had had misgivings. She invited us to stay the night, and in the morning we got up and he informed me that he was leaving, that he didn’t want the responsibility of a family and he walked out. He was 6’1”. And I was 5’2” and I couldn’t catch him. [We laughed.] It must have looked like a cartoon because I went running after him, and my mother went running after me. She was worried because of my condition. I was expecting in July.
Judy: So how again did you come to Christian Science; or perhaps I should ask, how did Science come to you?
Jan: Well, it goes back a ways.
I was working in Las Vegas, that’s the last place we [she and her first husband] were. I was working in one of the gambling places, The Golden Nugget, downtown. I wasn’t so sure I wanted a child because of the circumstances. I hardly knew I was married.
I received a note from my second grandmother. She being a Christian Scientist, there was just something that she expressed in that note that was so clear and so loving that it stuck with me.
And, when we got to my parents place I was extremely cold because it was 90-degrees in Las Vegas. When I got to Milwaukee, it was one of those March’s that have just really cold; there was still snow on the ground. So I wanted to get legal advice to see what I was to do about this situation. And I couldn’t get it because I didn’t have the money to pay, and they [attorneys] wouldn’t help me because my parents were willing to help me, and if the parents are willing then you don’t qualify. So I was really depressed and I proceeded to have pleurisy [disease that causes pain when breathing] and pneumonia [painful lung inflammation]. And my mother was such a dear. She took care of me. I was up on the second floor; I hate to think of how many times she took that flight of stairs, I was perspiring a lot because of the fever.
I had started reading the Bible because I was feeling really desperate and I thought maybe there was an answer there. I had been raised Baptist in the Sunday School from when I was in school and was little. And my mother very much loved Jesus and very much believed in his teachings. Although she never did become a Christian Scientist, she was open to it and had healings.
Well, anyway, one day the family in that household – my two brothers were still there, because one was going to college and working, and the other was still in high school – and my grandfather would stop in each day – and my sister was there with her baby because her husband was in the service – and my parents – so it was a very crowded household and there were not enough bedrooms to go around but it worked out.
They [everyone] had left for the evening so I was alone in the house. I crawled down the stairs because I was bedridden at this time. I got across the divan [sofa] and I used the piano bench to raise myself up, and happened to glance down and saw this copy laying there, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy. And that word health just jumped up. I think maybe something that my grandmother had stated made it acceptable. It was something that I could relate to. So I took the book upstairs to the bedroom and between the Bible and Science and Health I continued to read the two of them.
It was after I had my first child. I was ordered into a sanitarium for the care of tuberculosis because the x-ray they’d taken. The reason they ordered me into the sanitarium was because of this belief of contagion. However not one single person, not even my sister’s baby or my child was ever affected. You know, so much is made of contagion these days. You hear about it on the TV and you see it on the computer all the time. So, I was grateful, knowing from the beginning, knowing that God was present. HE was in charge!
So when I went into the sanitarium, I didn’t have a heavy sense of fear. I was, uhm, uh – I don’t know exactly how to express how I felt. Well, for one thing the attendant came to me right away and gave me a little glass of water and a pill. She stood over me and I was so intimidated that I felt obliged to take it. After all, I was in their care. But I only swallowed that one pill. I never took another pill while I was in the sanitarium or since. Somehow or other I had already accepted the spiritual fact that there’s no power in a pill.
Shortly before entering the Sanitarium I called a Christian Science Practitioner. I really believed God was on the scene. She lovingly informed me she couldn’t take the case because it would be an interference (conflict) with the medical belief. I said I understood and I knew where she was coming from and let it go. I had absolutely no sense of being deserted because I knew that God was still there. When I was institutionalized, my Mom brought my daughter to visit me. When they put a mask on her to protect her from me, I didn’t want her influenced by fear and so I requested not to bring her again. That lessened the burden for my Mom, too.
Judy: How long had you been reading Science and Health by this time?
Jan: Just a few months.
Judy: Just reading the textbook that short time lessened your fear and brought you healing?
Jan: Oh, yes. I had a friend that I would go visit in the sanitarium where we both resided. I had absolutely no hesitation to do so. Even though she would at times have such coughing spells that she would cough up blood while I was visiting her. (And no one would come to help her.) I just knew that blood had nothing to do with the reality of her being. I just loved her. I had absolutely no fear of the contagion at all. I was of course knowing that everybody was a child of God. And I think that she was very grateful that I was willing to spend time with her, because none of the others would go see her.
We’re perfectly safe [from the illusion of contagion]. Mrs. Eddy has something to say about that – Florence Nightingale – in Science and Health. And I accepted it. And my parents had never made a lot over diseases or doctors. But I had had a lot of instances in childhood with a couple of really nasty things. I was in the hospital twice, but I won’t go into that at this time. But I had not really learned to trust that procedure. It wasn’t that I disliked doctors, it was that I disliked what they did.
Judy: So. When the Science and Health textbook was found lying there on the floor that day by the piano – just reading of the book was how you came to rely on and trust Christian Science for healing?
Jan: Yes. Nobody in the household knew or had any memory of where it [the Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures book by Mary Baker Eddy] came from.
What’s interesting is after my father passed on, my mother was extremely ill and she called me. It was a holiday weekend. And there was a practitioner just a block away and I asked my mother if she would like her to work for her. And she said, yes!, and she was helped. I had taken two weeks off from work. After all they had taken me in and this was an opportunity to show how grateful I was. I sang hymns to her; I’d spend half a day singing hymns and she loved it.
But getting back to the case at hand [tuberculosis], they tested all the time, they took x-rays without any padding but I don’t know if they use padding today. They ran a hose through my nose and into my stomach, and I thought why are they doing this? You felt like a Guinea pig. They never explained anything, and I didn’t care to even ask because I wasn’t interested in their procedures. I was interested in what God knew. And, you know, one of the girls found out that I was studying Christian Science she had no mercy on me; she just took every opportunity to have a jolly good time making fun of me about it. But you know that I never retaliated; I never felt it necessary. I just had this sense of peace. And incidentally I never took another pill [after that first day I arrived]. The thing is, from that time on, after having taken it, I thought, why did you do that? Were you afraid of that woman? What could she have done to you? And I just didn’t take one [a pill] anymore. And I was out in one-third of the time they expected me to be there.
Judy: Did you live in the sanitarium or just check in from time to time?
Jan: I was in the sanitarium [all the time] but my child had been at my mother’s, so I knew my daughter was safe. I was in the sanitarium with eight other girls in one room. All they talked about was [their health] problems.
But I just had this sense of joy somehow. And I know what it was. You cannot be studying Science and Health and at the same time feel like you’re under a different law [than God’s divine law].
After two years they released me to out-patient care. And they told me that I should report to the infirmary to pick up medication. I hadn’t been taking any [all along] so I never went to pick it up. They discovered that I hadn’t been taking the medication, so after releasing me to out-patient care, they kept me coming back to the sanitarium for testing for six [more] years!
During that time I was married to my second husband, who couldn’t wait to adopt my daughter after we got married. He was a great man, a wonderful musician, and we had a beautiful 48-year marriage. The thing is, every time I would get that notice from the health department that I had to report out there [to the sanitarium], I would have all these [dis-ease] symptoms. I mentioned it to my husband one time. He was a member of the Christian Science church for which I was so grateful. He was my rock. He would say, you’re going out there, you’re going to be fine, you know you’re going to be fine. He was a very good Thinker. And so, I was fine. Every time I left all that discomfort [dis-ease] would just disappear once I had taken the tests and was back home. That just proves how mental that condition was.
Judy: How did your out-patient six years of continuous, required testing come to an end?
Jan: Well, I went to the Christian Science Milwaukee (Wisconsin) Committee on Publication. I talked to them about it. I said isn’t there something I can do. Anybody that is not taking medication shouldn’t have to go through all this testing to make sure they’re still okay to be out in the public. They said, why don’t you go out there and meet with the head guy and have a talk with him, and see what the result is.
So, I went out there. I was kind of a little shaky about that to begin with but then I thought, No, I know what I know and I know that God is directing and that’s all I need to know. Well, when I got out there I did get hold of one of the guys and I asked him to take out all my records. And, there was a table that was probably 15-20 feet long. He laid them out, one-by-one, well I don’t think one-by-one because he would have had to have two tables. He did have them all displayed to his satisfaction. Then, I asked him to take look at them. And he looked at me in a strange kind of way [she laughs], but he did it. He went along the table, around the end, and back. He scrutinized them, then he sat down and looked at me waiting [for me to speak]. I asked him a question. I think he may have thought I’d been talking to a lawyer or something because I asked him: if I was to be taken into a court of law today would they be able to determine me as being a public health menace? He went and looked at the records again and studied them. Then he came back and he said, no, I couldn’t. And I said, well I’m so glad to hear that because I have found a religion that puts God first, is the greatest power there is, and I’m sticking with that and I will not be out here anymore. [Laughingly she says] he sat back and said, well you may be okay today but wait ‘til 15 years from now. And I thought to myself, baloney [and she laughs]. I didn’t worry about 15 years from then; I didn’t even know when the 15 years came. That was more than 60 years ago.
~ ~ ~ ~ Jan Gutteter (recorded by Judy Piercy)~ ~ ~

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Conversation about Christian Science Healing

Judy: So it seems you have extremely meaningful healing experiences that you fall back on and say, “I know. I know that CHRISTIAN Science is the Law. I know that God is here. I know that it is only fear. It is only mortal thinking and illusion of dis-ease that has no reality.”
Jan: And it probably had a lot to do with the fact that I also could feel that way about my healing of the deformed feet. (see Jan Gutteter testimony, “How Christian Science healed my deformed feet.”)
Because any of these experiences are growing experiences. You know you are, uh, what should I say, uh, your faith gets tested. Not because God tests but because maybe , maybe, something is going on in your life or your thinking is needing to be recognized. Because if you don’t recognize it, you aren’t going to be doing too much about it.
Judy: it seems like some of the physical challenges that come to some devoted, long standing Christian Scientists, just rise up out of the blue. Just like your waking up with the impression of deformed feet. Just like your waking with terrible leg pain.
Jan: That’s always a temptation and that’s why I feel that this [the deformed feet] was so unique. It was like an awakening. I’m getting the idea. Put God first. Don’t even give it a second thought as far as [mortal, physical] cause and effect. Mrs. Eddy warns about that.
Judy: I recall a C.S. practitioner relaying a situation to me where she ended up paralyzed for several months before she could break through that. It just seems like some of the situations devoted Christian Scientists are faced with just surfaces out of the blue, for them to work through.
That’s why I think your healing testimonies are so important, and I for one appreciate your bringing a healing testimony to Wednesday meetings. You never know who in the audience has need of a shared inspiration, needs a healing thought that will stay with them for a long time.
Jan: You know that makes me think of when I was in Boston one time, for the annual meeting I believe. When we went to church I gave a testimony about the TB, tuberculosis, and a gal came up to me after the service and she said, “Oh I thank you so much. That is just what I needed to hear.”
Judy: You just never know when we hold to God’s Truth, the truths in Christian Science, you never know who that Light touches. I think that’s the way it’s meant to be. That’s the ultimate, when our stand for the Truth of God’s law of Science heals. We often never know what impact taking that stand has. I think that’s the way it’s supposed to be. We’re supposed to just trust that our taking a stand for the truth puts weight in the divine scale of freedom for good.
Jan: I agree with that, and I think that what is important to me is that I’m really beginning to understand that it isn’t ME, it’s God. It’s God and me. If you approach something with the goal being healing, this isn’t as important as having the goal be your understanding of what God is all about.
Judy: It’s not about the physical ailment and healing. That’s why you’re saying, it’s about God. In fact you’re saying, it’s about me and God. So when you’re working to gain that understanding you realize that He is bringing about healing. When you are working to gain that understanding, it’s the two of you working together.
Jan: Yes, I think that we have to recognize [that single spiritual element of healing] when Mrs. Eddy talks about One, the oneness of God.
Jan Gutteter (recorded by Judy Piercy)

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My daughter, Mary, was diagnosed with cancer several weeks ago and had an appointment with a cancer doctor today.

I reached out for prayerful help and am pleased to report on her visit today, there was no sign of the lump that previously gave concern.  Praise God!  This truly is yet another demonstration of the power of prayer.

Christian Science is a most practical, rewarding religion.  As Mary Baker Eddy said “Christian Science will meet every human need”.

That statement has proven itself over and over in my experience.  I am blessed to have found this religion some fifty years ago and knew right off it would be an important part of my life.

Love, Mary Vance

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Protected From Danger, Freed From Lingering Anxiety

Spiritual intuition – a clear, calm sense of divine direction and guidance – is something I’ve come to value and completely trust.  This spiritual sense is inherent in all of us as the cherished children of God.  In times of need – great and small – when I’ve turned to God and quietly listened, I’ve experienced what the prophet Isaiah said in the Bible:  “And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left” (Isaiah 30:21).

A number of years ago, I had an opportunity to prove the spiritual power of these words in an unexpected way.  After the passing of my father, I wanted some time to myself to pray to better understand him as God’s eternal, spiritual child and to heal the sadness in my heart.  I rode my motorcycle to a lovely state park – it was a gorgeous spring day – and I found a sun-warmed wall overlooking a quiet lake – a perfect place to think and pray.

Lost in thought, I suddenly realized a man was standing quite close, on a gentle slope above me.  He appeared agitated, switching his weight from foot to foot and then pacing back and forth.  His presence made me uncomfortable and edgy.  Within a matter of moments, however, the discomfort grew into a numbing terror.  I sensed that I was in grave danger of sexual assault.

I reached out to God.  I had time for only “Father, help me!” because the man suddenly moved to within a yard of me.  Without thinking, I was on my feet.  A voice in thought said firmly, “Step toward him”.  I hesitated, but the thought came again,  more strongly and loudly:  “Step toward him now”.  I obeyed.  I stepped even closer and hollered, “Leave me alone!”  He spun on his heel and ran away, up through the grass and into the woods.

I walked away in profound gratitude, but as I neared the parking lot, I saw that from behind a tree the man was sneaking toward me.  My arm shot out and I felt impelled to point my finger at him, shouting, “No!  You!  Go!”  He did, and I was able to get in my motorcycle and leave.

Mary Baker Eddy writes, “Into His haven of Soul there enters no element of earth to cast out angels, to silence the right intuition which guides you safely home”  (Miscellaneous Writings 1883-1896, p. 152).  I knew that my Father-Mother God is always present, telling us, “This is the way, walk ye in it”, and that receptivity to divine Mind had protected me.  However, the event continued to negatively impact my thought and actions.  I found myself more hesitant to ride alone and blamed myself for having courted a dangerous situation.

But as I continued to grow in my spiritual understanding, I began to see that, in a spiritual sense, in the reality of God and His perfect creation, that man wasn’t “bad and predatory”, and I wasn’t “dumb and unaware”.  I realized we were both – no matter how it appeared humanly – the direct spiritual representatives of divine Love, God, made in God’s image and likeness, expressing intelligence, calmness, and clarity of thought.  We always had been and always would be.  This understanding freed me from the aftereffects of this incident.

Human experience tells us that man can be deviant, greedy, unconsciously selfish.  Or naive, vulnerable, blithely unthinking.  But material opinions about life have nothing whatsoever to do with who man really is as the reflection of God.  Mrs. Eddy says, “Every mortal must learn that there is neither power no reality in evil” (Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, p. 186).  As the spiritual idea of his creator, man cannot be evil.  It’s impossible.

A number of times the Bible states that when Christ Jesus looked upon those who were in need, he was “moved with compassion”.  And then he healed – quickly and effectively.   What was going on with those healings at their deepest level?   In every situation, it was always the presence of Love, the divine Principle, being demonstrated.  Jesus proved that God’s law governs man, as he saw man’s true spiritual selfhood in whatever situation confronted him.  What naturally followed was that healing came to those with receptive hearts.

Grief about my dad was eased that day in the state park as my true Father’s care was so actively proven, and as I continued praying, full freedom came a short time later.  And whenever the incident in the park comes to thought, which it seldom does these days, I see how God’s love and care have overcome disgust, judgment, and fear.

The countless Christian Science hearings and demonstrations that have graced my life could well fill this entire publication.  I have tremendous gratitude for all that God is and all that God causes to be.  Amen.

Colleen Coleman Lester, Green Valley, Arizona, Church Member


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Atonement Revisited

Growing up, although I was familiar with “atone” as a verb, it didn’t occur to me to consider it in any theological/religious context.  To me it simply meant making amends for mistakes or misdeeds, owning up to them, straightening things out.  The implications were somewhat grim and foreboding.

I suppose that this view remained somewhere in the back of thought as I came into Christian Science.  The Bible Lessons on “Doctrine of Atonement” did not seem of great import or relevance to me for some time, although Mrs. Eddy’s hyphenation of the word into at-one-ment began to give a fresh, clearer sense to the term.

The fourth tenet of Christian Science begins “We acknowledge Jesus’ atonement as the evidence of divine, efficacious Love…”.  What followed was for me like the pre-digital days when any presentation with visual images likely included transparencies projected onto a screen.  As each slide came up, there was a brief interval before the light and heat of the projection bulb touches it, when the image was blurred and unclear.  Then suddenly it snapped into perfect focus and remained crisp and distinct to the viewers.

Similarly the word “evidence” stood out and called for attention.  I knew you can’t have evidence of something that doesn’t exist.  So Jesus didn’t, couldn’t have, originated atonement; he was demonstrating something already in existence.  Genesis 1 tells us God created man in His image and likeness.  As long as God and man have been (that is, since the beginning of creation) there must have been at-one-ment.  Like that slide popping into focus, what this made obvious to me is that atonement is not a process – it is and has always been an established fact.  We have to acknowledge and bear witness to it, but we can’t make it happen, because it already has.

The effect of this realization has been to replace the old, dire, somewhat off-putting view of atonement with a warm, joyous, uplifting sense of it.  Familiar terms take on wider, richer meaning – unity, oneness, coexistence, indissoluble connection (some terms Mrs. Eddy uses in Science and Health).  Atonement has become comforting and encouraging, it has warmth.  No longer an item on the “to do” list, it is a cause for gratitude and rejoicing, opening wonderful new dimensions to the idea of “togetherness”.

Beth Sanborn, Member

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A Lesson in Healing Grief

A few days ago, we got news that a dear friend was in the hospital. As we were driving there, it came to me that God is Life and there is nothing else. That God is All and there is nothing else. That time didn’t matter. That matter had no life. All of these thoughts flooded my consciousness and I felt very strong in my stand that Christian Science is true. It was indeed a glimpse – as Mrs. Eddy says in Mis. 24:14-24:18 “That short experience included a glimpse of the great fact that I have since tried to make plain to others, namely, Life in and of Spirit; this Life being the sole reality of existence”.

Our friend had stood on the understanding of God and man as Christian Science reveals to us from the Bible.  She had made it clear that she was relying on these Truths – that she was made by God, that she was spiritual and not material and that she would trust God with her life.  She apparently was in the hospital because her family thought it would be the best place for her and that is how they could care and love her.  After our visit, I continued to work with the clear, strong knowledge that God was her life and no matter what was happening all around her, God was in control.

Later that night we received the call that she had passed on.  In church the next day, we sang #298 in the Christian Science Hymnal, Mrs. Eddy’s Communion hymn, “Saw Ye My Saviour”.  As I heard the words read, the second verse popped out as if I had not heard those words before – “Mourner it calls you, come to my bosom, Love wipes your tears all away, and will lift the shade of gloom, and for you make radiant room midst the glories of one endless day”.  I reread verse one – about the Christ and the glad sound and the power of the Word.  It was a comforting message and one I could lean on and become free of grief for this dear friend.  She had gone on and was doing well.  I could cherish who she was and what she had done for all of us.  I was grateful that she took such a stand for herself in believing and understanding the Christ.  I could remember her laugh and her joy and care for us all and her many testimonies given at church.  It is a lesson I am learning and will continue to learn with God’s dear grace.

Jane Lang, Member

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Challenge Overcome by Listening to God

One Sunday the disposal at the kitchen sink stopped working.  The dishwasher was also hooked into this disposal which meant I could neither wash dishes at the sink nor run the dishwasher.  Though I had a list of handy men, I knew I would not be able to get one of them to work on the weekend.  So I decided I would install a new disposal myself.  After all, how difficult can that be?  So I purchased a new disposal at Home Depot, brought it home and studied the directions for installation thoroughly.  Removing the old, “not working disposal” was easy, as it released easily, and simply dropped into my hands.  The directions for installation said simply that I must hold the new disposal up to the sink with my left hand and connect it with my right hand.  I was lying on my back on the floor of the cabinet, holding the disposal above my head.  However, no matter how many times I tried, I simply seemed to lack the strength needed.  So I quit for awhile, and decided to work metaphysically on the problem.  Again and again I affirmed that omnipotent God supplies whatever strength is needed, but it took me till the next day to recognize that mortal mind had convinced me that because I am a woman, I would not have sufficient strength.  I finally realized that I had not been listening, and I asked God to please tell me whatever I needed to know.  Almost immediately I knew to go to the garage and get the Tire Jack!!!  In no time at all the dishwasher installation was complete.  Surely God loves me!

Charlotte Petry

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Gratitude to God for Care, Protection and Love Which Surrounds Me

Desert View, a Christian Science Nursing Facility in Phoenix, Arizona, is a wonderful place.  They take wonderful care of their patients and the support for Christian Science treatment is solid.  Within three days I was well.  My son flew in from California and stayed at a nearby motel and visited each day.  At one point, I did experience a relapse, but soon received a firm healing.

If I were in Green Valley, I would be testifying at church about the wonderful healing experience at Desert View.  We Arizonans have a gem in our midst.  If you would like to testify for me that would be okay.

A number of members at the Green Valley church have sent cards and notes which have been forwarded to me.  What a delight to receive them.  I hope to answer them all soon.

Bet you are surprised at the return address on this letter.  My daughter lives about twenty minutes from here and wanted me close by.  This way we can see each other quite frequently.  As you know Wide Horizon, a Christian Science Nursing and Assisted Living  Facility in Colorado, is an exquisitely beautiful place.  Wonderful views – trees of all sorts, a little creek and plantings.  My daughter, Marsha, flew to Desert View and then we flew together to Denver for the move.

I have not words to express my deep sense of gratitude to God for the care, protection, and love that surrounds me.

Charlotte Petry, Member

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Recently I found myself becoming annoyed with several people I knew.  In praying about the situation and knowing it wasn’t right to feel that way, the thought came to me that when our little cat does something not quite right, I usually say “Oh, you’re a good boy – you didn’t mean it”.  The same when a small child doesn’t do something right, it’s easy to say to the child, “You didn’t mean that – you’re good”.  I began to think about why it is so easy to show grace and forgiveness to small children or animals.  It’s because I think of them as innocent – harmless and needing cherishing and protecting.  Somehow I had accepted the belief that as we grow older we lose our innocence and childlikeness.

But what is the difference between children and older people?  There is none.  There is no time when we lose our innocence.  It is God-given – the same yesterday, and today and forever.  It cannot diminish or be taken away or hidden.  Innocence must be affirmed and cherished and protected in all of God’s children around the world.  Think what good would become apparent it I began every day affirming innocence in everyone I encountered or thought about.

Mary Lou, Member

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The Way it’s “Supposed to be”? Good!

Several years ago, after much prayer, I was inspired to place my house on the market to sell, with the brave intent of moving clear across the country.  However, months went by and there was no sale.  I lowered the price twice, and made some minor cosmetic changes to make the property more appealing.  Still there was no sale.  Then I wondered if maybe this failure to sell was a “sign” from God that I wasn’t supposed to move after all.  But then I thought more deeply about it.

If a student of mathematics has trouble solving an equation, that wouldn’t be a “sign” that the problem isn’t solvable.  The student knows that because the principles of mathematics are already established, the solution has already been established.  She also knows that she is fully capable of understanding and applying those principles correctly in order to find the right answer.

It was my deep and earnest desire to understand the principles of divine Science at work in my life.  I wasn’t seeking a specific human outcome to my housing situation, but an understanding of my true, spiritual home.  As I listened for divine Principle’s – God’s – guidance, I gained a wonderful calm clarity.  I realized that the fact that my house had failed to sell just meant that my house had not sold, and that believing that circumstance was a “sign” was a superstition.

To conclude that each event in our human experience – both good and bad – must have divine authority, is a misguided belief.  It is as unscientific as believing that the roll of the dice or the numbers on a lottery ticket are sanctioned by heaven, God, the all-knowing Mind, does not play games with His beloved creation.  Nor is “fate” another name for omnipotent God.

There is an exact, dependable, invariable, and loving divine Principle governing our lives, including housing decisions.  And that divine Principle is God.  Turning away from human speculation about what was “supposed to be”, I focused on gaining an understanding of what is.  I began to see that it actually didn’t so much matter where in the world I lived.  My true sense of home is not a geographical spot on Earth, because I am always at home in the all-inclusiveness of God’s love.  Restlessness or mere thrill-seeking adventurism also had no place in this settled spiritual home.

Such peace followed these realizations!  All confusion and uncertainty vanished as spiritual reasoning based on divine Principle overcame human reasoning in my thought.  Within a month, the house sold, I moved and settled into a new place.  My peaceful understanding of my spiritual “home” stayed with me, much like a snail has its shell everywhere it goes.

What truly is “supposed to be” already is and ever was.  It requires no anxious waiting for tea leaves to reveal a pattern or for unseen mysterious forces to come into play and coalesce a plan.  The fact is that God, good, is the only cause.  Harmony and order are the effects.  Speculation about what is humanly “supposed to be” must give place to these divine facts.

We may become sidetracked by imagining scenarios of chance or failure, but when we look out from the mountaintop of spiritual understanding and keep this higher view, we find no need to join the game of guessing and weighing outcomes.  This higher view is based on the allness of God, good.  And we can surely expect God’s goodness in our lives.  This is not watching with sheer optimism, to see how the wind blows, and equating that with God’s will.

This “whatever happens is supposed to happen” or “everything happens for a reason” thinking entertains the possibility that bad outcomes and uncertainty are God’s will.  We may start to ask God multiple choice questions like “Will I find my right home, or not”? or “Will I be healed, or not”?  God’s will has no either/or when it comes to our care.  God’s will is invariable good, and can have no other conclusion but good in our lives.

Mary Bakes Eddy writes:  “Immortal Mind is God, immortal good; in whom the Scripture saith ‘we live, and move, and have out being’.  This Mind…is the divine intelligence, or Principle, of all real being; holding man forever in the rhythmic round of unfolding bliss, as a living witness to and perpetual idea of inexhaustible good”.  (Miscellaneous Writings 1883-1896, pp. 82-83)  Understanding this true condition of our existence gives us a foundation upon which to build our expectations of the right resolution to any questions we face.

Earlene Cox

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