Christian Science healed my painful feet.
Jan: [Conducting the principal part of Christian Science Sunday services and Wednesday meetings is a Reader(s) job. Wednesday spiritual meetings include singing of hymns, readings from the Bible and the Christian Science textbook, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy, recitation of the Lord’s Prayer, and testimonies of healings or comments on Christian Science from the congregation. One Wednesday meeting, the Reader recited a verse from hymn No. 57 of the Christian Science Hymnal.] When he read it from the [podium] desk, I had been glued to my bench because I wasn’t going to get up to give another [healing] testimony because I’d already given testimony and I (laughingly) thought, this is overdoing it a little.
But when he read the last verse:
“Naught shall affright us, on Thy goodness leaning;
Low in the heart faith singeth still her song;
Chastened and blessed we learn life’s deeper meaning,
Thus in our meekness Thou dost make us strong.
But that [hymnal verse] just hit me like, my gosh, I’d better get up! It was almost like I was being pushed!
I thought, I am strong because God has made me that way. I was meek enough to put God first rather than looking for a healing or release from pain. I was looking to see Him as the only power. And considering I was at one moment to be in agony and next everything was just at peace.
[Prior to this healing of my seemingly deformed feet] Every day I had been keeping in thought the 91st Psalm. In there it says, “He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.91:1 ..… For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.91:11” I just knew I was safe.
Judy: It just proves that the material body is not material but spiritual.
Jan: Yes, because any of these experiences are growing experiences. You know you are, uh, what should I say, uh, your faith gets tested. Not because God tests but because maybe, maybe, something is going on in your life or your thinking is needing to be recognized. If you don’t recognize it, you aren’t going to be doing too much about it.
It seems like I have a need to learn right now because of the challenges that have come up, one right after the other.
[In handling the fear of an illusion of deformed feet] I think for the very first time I got a real glimmer of the fact that we can of our own self do nothing. You know it’s all God working through us. If it wasn’t for us, He couldn’t be God. And if it weren’t for God, we couldn’t be us. He’s the “I,” we are the “AM.” And I had never thought of it in that way before.
Judy: Thank you for sharing that. I’ve never thought of “I AM” in that way before either.
Jan: Well, in the morning I woke up earlier than usual. I was in pain, which seemed to be in my feet. I sat up in bed and when I went to put my feet down, I looked down because it was like, how can I use them? They were all twisted out of shape. It was really grotesque. I didn’t have anything to hold onto in the bedroom and I had to get to the toilet. It was such a belief of suffering it was hard to be coherent or think clearly. But I guess that I had enough wits about me that I somehow used the side of my heel and I managed to stumble my way into the bathroom. I just stood there and I couldn’t even move to sit down on the toilet. I was standing in front of the sink. I don’t think that I’ve ever experienced something quite [like it]. It could have been so frightening.
As I stood there in absolute agony I was led to turn to the great heart of Love – My thought was -God, I know you love me and I love you – there is no fear in Love. The response to this was that within a few minutes the pain completely left, I was able to do what I came to the bathroom to do. I did not have to look at my feet to know I was completely free. I walked normally back to the bedroom, went to bed and slept peacefully. In the morning I went about my normal activities and when I happened to look down- my feet were in their usual shape.
And all of a sudden I thought, God is the only power, work out from God. It was like I reached out to the great heart of Love. And it disappeared just like that – the pain. And I thought, I could not have of my own self done that. I just couldn’t!
I actually thought I’m getting opportunities, and that’s why I refer to it as opportunities to grow. I know (laughing) I had been getting a little apathetic [with regard to my taking God and the Christ Science a bit for granted]. And I was so grateful. I did get back to bed and I had no fear of any return or any trouble. I went sound asleep. I woke up at a more manageable hour, shall we say, and I was ready for the day. I’ll have to admit that I was more sore than I normally would have been, but I was able to do the tasks that I needed to do.
And that’s what I’ve been claiming since Bert [my husband] passed on. My every need has been met, and I have been so totally grateful. And I say, Thank You, every day. But this [mortal experience, mortal illusion, of deformed feet being so quickly healed] was a Wow!
SH 243:32 Inasmuch as God is good and the fount of all being, He does not produce moral or physical deformity; therefore such deformity is not real, but is illusion, the mirage of error. Divine Science reveals these grand facts. On their basis Jesus demonstrated Life, never fearing nor obeying error in any form.
From Concord Express – A Christian Science Study Resource: The King James Version of the Bible and Mary Baker Eddy’s published writings
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